Below are the 20 most recent journal entries recorded in maile220's LiveJournal:

[ << Previous 20 ]

Tuesday, March 6th, 2007
4:20 pm	Grrr!!! First, it's too late to start for someone to start voicing her opinion about me and him. She's 8 months too late. The cool thing is that he feels the same way I do. It does upset me, but I also find it annoying. Second, my uterus hates me! I started my period Sunday for the third time since Fadi's bday (Feb 15)!!! Third, I took my car into the shop today. I need my windshield replaced, a spare key, my muffler replaced, and my keyless entry fixed. Well, I got a call saying that I need new front brake pads too. Oh and that the guy who had my car messed with the most of the exhaust system, so I need the whole system replaced. All in all, it's costing me $1230. Unfortunately, I'm not rich so I don't have it laying around which means that's going on a credit card. Now good things.... My mom gets here tomorrow so I get to see her. Thursday night, we are leaving Austin for CC. The next morning, I'm getting my haircut so I get to see Kevin and then we leave CC for South Padre! Monday night is the fucking TOADIES!!!!!!!!!!!!! Current Mood: blah (Comment on this)
Saturday, February 10th, 2007
2:50 pm	I stole this from Amy 1. I've come to realize that my last kiss...isn't going to be my last kiss. 2. I am listening to ...my co-worker saying "oh shit" a lot. 3. I talk ... when I speak. 4. I love ... sleeping with someone next to me. 5. My best friend(s) ...are meg and joni. 6. My first real kiss ... was under a pillow! 8. I hate it when people ask ... "What's wrong?". 9. Love is ... overrated and a lie. 10. Marriage is ... a prison. 11. Somewhere, someone is thinking ... of a way to hurt me. 12. I'll always ... be fucked up. 13. I have a secret crush ... on no one. People know who I care about right now. 14. The last time I cried was because ... I think it was over Matt and how he hurt me. 15. My cell phone is ... awesome but I want the m500 in silver. 16. When I wake up in the morning ... I want to go back to sleep. That's the good thing about sleeping at Fadi's, when my alarm goes off, I get up so I don't bother him more than I have to. 17. Before I go to bed ... I think about stuff. 18. Right now I am thinking about ... answers for this survey... 19. Babies are ... cute. 20. I go on Livejournal ... to read about my friend's lives and sometimes share mine. 21. Today I ... got flowers from a customer for providing such good customer service 22. Tonight I will ... play board games 23. Tomorrow I will be ... working. 24. I really want to be... free and happy. 25. Someone who will most likely to repost this is? One of you who wants a quick break. Current Mood: complacent (Comment on this)
Saturday, January 20th, 2007
10:15 am	For doing nothing last night, I got in waaaay too late. I didn't get home until after 4am and I had work at 9:30 this morning. I wasn't even drinking! This morning I got up at 9, got ready really quick, and left for work. Like an idiot, I passed my exit and didn't even notice!!! I can tell today is going to suck ass. I want to go back to bed. Current Mood: tired (Comment on this)
Friday, January 19th, 2007
10:45 pm	Another weird dream.... I jumped onto my bed where Joey (my dog) was laying. As I jumped on the bed, Joey disappeared and a hot guy appeared. I jumped onto the guy and laughed, joked around with, and kissed him. Then I started playing a little computer game, but it turned out not to be the right game. So he started making fun of me and we joked around some more and kissed some more. I told him "I love you." Then immediately gasped and slapped my hand over my mouth like it was a mistake, but he immediately said it back and I got really happy. Then we kissed some more. Then I saw a snake-eel thing in my bathroom (which was attached to my room) and started screaming. He killed it then decided to check my closet but I didn't want to be standing there so I jumped on his back. He checked the closet but it was clear. That's when I woke up... In the dream, I seemed to think the guy was Fadi. When I woke up, I thought it was Matt. But he didn't really look like either (maybe a mixture of the two a lil bit). Plus he was taller than them both. Why do I always have weird dreams? What does it mean? Current Mood: confused (Comment on this)
Saturday, January 6th, 2007
12:12 am	What I did in Connecticut today Today I met my grandma's (my mom's step-mom's) new husband. It's weird I know. I wasn't too sure how I felt about the whole thing and I'm still not. He seems like a nice guy. He's much quieter than my grandma. But she seems happy and I guess that's all that matters. I still find it weird though. Tomorrow my aunt, uncle, cousins, and my mom's real mom are coming. That should be good and fun. Current Mood: okay (Comment on this)
Monday, January 1st, 2007
11:52 am	Shitty New Years Well i had a crappy new years though i hope everyone else enjoyed theirs. It started out by going to 6th street with nikki, joni, and joey. nikki and i met some guys and talked to them awhile. the first guy was hot, his name is zack and nikki left with him eventually. the other guy was tim and not so hot. the three of us were talking until zack came by and started talking to nikki again. so i was talking to tim. then after a lil bit he says to me...."well i, uhh, think you're relatively pretty." What an ass hole! as true as that may be, I felt like shit the rest of the night and even today. I complained that i never get hit on when i go out. meg said it was because i typically go out with fadi, but fadi wasn't there and i still didn't get hit on! i mean unless you count being told that i'm "relatively pretty" which is really saying that i'm ugly. Anyway, after downtown, joni, joey, and i went to ryan's party where fadi and some other people were. we got there and were there for like 20 minutes. fadi left and we were like "alright, no one else we really know too well here, let's go home." so we did. BUT i left my house key at home like a fucking idiot! joni didn't know where her's was and nikki was at zack's hotel. Luckily we found joni's copy (which was on her keychain!) and i got in. I thought wearing a silk lingerie nighty would make me feel a lil better, but it didn't. So that was my shitty new years. How was yours? Current Mood: annoyed (2 Comments |Comment on this)
Tuesday, December 19th, 2006
11:13 am	I had the weirdest dream lasst night.... So apparently it was my wedding day.... (I have no idea who I was marrying since I'm alone and it never went into it, but whatever).... Anyway, I was leaving to catch the bus and started freaking out that I needed a shot before I got married. I was looking on the street curb for something to take a shot of. Needless to say, I didn't find anything. Then (in the dream) I realized that my wedding was at 3:00 and I had an eye appt at 2:00. So I started freaking out even more. That's when I woke up. Any ideas on what that dream means? (Comment on this)
Tuesday, December 5th, 2006
12:04 pm	I love it! You know you're from Long Island when... 1. Flip-flops are normal, even in January. 2. You know exactly what they mean when they say "Don't change at Jamaica." 3. You know that The Drift Inn and Neptunes are in the same building, but you also know that they are NOTHING alike. 4. Screw the SAT, you know the exact pronuncuation of Islip, Wantagh, Commack, Mattituck, Shinnecock, Quogue, Ronkonkoma, Hauppauge, Mineola, Islandia, Massapequa, and Patchogue. 5. You and your friends are going to the beach, but the word beach never comes up in the conversation. Instead, it sounds something like this..."Well, we could go to Jones, but Robert Moses is closer, the North Shore is too rocky...whatever lets go to the Hamptons." 6. You have no idea what jimmies are, or why someone would want to put them on their ice cream 7. You have never used "wicked" as an adjective 8. You know that Americana Manhasset is NOT a type of coffee 9. You know that it's possible to take Jericho all the way to queens...but you would never EVER do it 10. Parallel parking in your drivers ed class was pointless...you only had to do it next to one car 11. You live in the shadow of the greatest city in the world, but you almost never go there. 12. When you're away from Long Island, you love it and when you're home, you don't. 13. You think if you're not from Long Island or NYC, you're not really from New York. 14. You know the exact point at which Queens turns into Nassau simply on intuition. 15. You don't go to Manhattan, you go to "The City." 16. You never realize you have an accent till you leave. 17. Everything north of the Bronx is "upstate." 18. At some point in your life you've gone clamming. 19. Either your parents or your grandparents lived in the city. 20. You'd pay $11.50 for a movie. 21. You don't live in Long Island. You live ON Long Island. 22. You know where the Commack Motor Inn is. 23. Your distant future might involve the state of Florida. 24. You know the location of 6 malls and a dozen McDonalds and 36 7-11's. 25. You've tried to find the Amityville Horror house. 26. No, you don't want mustard on that burger!! 27. You can't understand why a diner would ever close. 28. You've had a seagull poop on your car. 29. You don't really see the big deal about the Hamptons, unless you got smashed at the Boardy Barn. 30. You know White Castle is terrible for you and it gives you a stomach ache, but you periodically "Get the Crave." 31. You want the Yankees to stay in the Bronx, but would probably go to more games if they moved to Manhattan. 32. You think that somehow, the Jets and Giants still play in New York. 33. You've missed that "Drunk Train," the 2:42 out of Penn, and had the dreaded wait until 5:30. 34. You or someone you know has owned an animal that came from North Shore Animal League. 35. You've never taken an MTA bus. 36. The Long Island Expressway isn't really as bad as everybody thinks. 37. You don't associate Fire Island with gay men. 38. You know which parts of the Godfather were filmed on Long Island. 39. You've paid a $10 cover charge to get into a bar, but got nothing for it. 40. You miss whiffle ball and running through sprinklers. 41. Billy Joel said it best, "either you date a rich girl from the North Shore, or a cool girl from the South Shore." 42. You have or someone you know has fallen asleep on the LIRR and ended up in one of these three places; Babylon, Port Washington or Hicksville. 43. You know that there is a big different between any of the other hamptons, and hampton bays 44. The Belt Parkway sucks! 45. You've been stuck in a traffic jam for more than 2 hours (without moving). 46. Your parents took you to All American, Nathans or Carvel (on the way home from the beach). 47. You don't have to go far to see your family. 48. You remember Grumman. 49. You know the color of the water at Jones Beach is not BLUE! 50. You were upset when all the Roy Rogers turned into Wendy's and Arby's closed for good. 51. You can spout off all the LIRR stops between Penn Station and Ronkonkoma. 52. Paying $35 for a haircut doesn't sound so crazy. 53. You think the people from Brooklyn are "da wunz dat tawk wit a accent." 54. You went sledding in the sumps. 55. You knew of Massapequa before the Amy Fisher-Joey Buttafuoco nightmare. 56. You think going to Queens is a hike. 57. The first time you heard the term "Long Island Iced Tea" you were somewhere else and you laughed. 58. When you live somewhere else and are astounded to see that people actually stop at yellow lights. 59. Its rare to get really bad bagels or pizza on long island, almost as rare as it is to get good bagels and pizza anywhere else. 60. You can name at least three bands that came from Long Island. 61. You've partied in the woods at least once in your life. 62. You know what Pilgram State and Sweet Hallow Road are...and you are NEVER going again 63. You are never more then 20 minutes away from the water. 64. You have been to at least one concert at jones beach. 65. When you hear "the end", you think Montauk. Orient Point never crosses your mind. 66. Wandering around Fire Island trashed is an acceptable plan for any night. 67. Doing 90 over the Robert Moses bridge or on Ocean Parkway is perfectly fine. 68. When you say that you are going to "the outlets", Tanger is implied. 69. You have a friends who swears they saw Billy Joel somewhere in Oyster Bay 70. When people ask "where are you from?" you answer Long-Guy-Land and automatically assume everyone in the world knows that answer means New York. 71. You've seen the commercials, and you've craved their shakes, but you know damn well there are no DQ's or Sonics on Long Island. Current Mood: sleepy (Comment on this)
Saturday, December 2nd, 2006
2:33 am	Tonight a guy gave me roses! No guy has ever bought me roses/flowers before! They are so pretty too. I love roses. Roses and plumeria are my favorite flowers. He didn't know that either. YAY! A guy finally bought me flowers! but not just any flowers, ROSES! Current Mood: giddy (1 Comment |Comment on this)
Saturday, November 18th, 2006
2:27 am	I don't know what to do. It's hopeless for me. I hate my life. I just want the shit to go away and end forever. Current Mood: scared, sad, upset, I'm ruined (Comment on this)
Monday, October 2nd, 2006
6:08 pm	La Dee Dah Update... So I went to CC this weekend. Of course it sucked because it was CC and because my sis was being a bitch. I got my furniture though so yay. I got my one-year anniversary present from Matt (1 year, 3 months, and 19 days late!) and my NY pics. I told him how I felt with no response from him so I'm keeping my promise and giving up.... Actually, I think on Friday, if it's good with Meg, I may have a mini-get-together celebrating my being single and alone forever. I'm also gonna burn some posters, one in particular, and throw away the clothes I wore yesterday (the outfit I was wearing when I met Matt 2 years, 3 months, and, now, 20 days ago). I was doing ok with this all day today. Then driving home.... I saw someone who looked exactly like Bri except skinnier! I started hyperventilating and didn't know what to do. I just kept reminding myself that I gave up and it's over. Ok that's it.... time to clean out the tv stand. Current Mood: crampy (7 Comments |Comment on this)
Sunday, September 17th, 2006
6:59 pm	I guess it's time for a post I was given 3 days off this week again! I should be excited but 2 of them are on days that I can work a full shift (or almost a full shift). I think I'm just gonna go in on Wednesday. If I do that, than I get tomorrow off. That means... I can do whatever tonight, so it looks like I may be drinking alone.... That is all. Current Mood: hungry (Comment on this)
Tuesday, September 12th, 2006
12:09 am	I've decided... I've decided to tell Matt that I love him when I see him in CC in a few weeks. Don't try to stop me. Current Mood: sleepy (Comment on this)
Monday, September 11th, 2006
2:52 pm	Alrighty... So last night, I ended things with Naveed. I feel good about this. I feel free. It's crazy. Everyone keeps asking if I'm ok... I am so don't worry. I mean I did cry when I got home but it had nothing to do with Naveed. I cried for Matt... Anyway, school has started so that sucks. I found out that I'm gonna be working with kindergarteners so I'm super excited about that! I start on Friday!!! OK... Lunch time Current Mood: hungry (Comment on this)
Monday, August 21st, 2006
1:39 pm	Just my luck... So yesterday morning I took my meds but didn't eat so I threw up a little bit. I would barely even call it throwing up. Then I went to see baby Ronny in San Marcos. Then I went to dinner at my sister's. We had rosemary chicken and rice, nothing that would cause an upset stomach. Afterwards, I went to Fadi's since I hadn't seen him in awhile and hung out with him George and Bryan until about 1:30. While George was outside smoking and Bryan hadn't arrived yet, Fadi and I were talking about being sick. He said that he was sick and always gets sick around this time of the year. I told him that I don't get sick often anymore... So I get up and get ready for work this morning. I take my meds and eat. Then I leave for work. When I'm less than a mile from my work, I get incredibly nauseaus and know that I'm gonna puke. I started gagging... Luckily I had a paper Whataburger bag in my car. I grabbed it and started puking just in time. Today was a lot. Noooo of course my body couldn't wait 2 more minutes until i got to work so I could throw up in the toilet! Instead, I walk in, say I can't stay because I "just puked all in my car," grabbed a trash bag, and went home. Just my luck, right? I say that I'm not sickly anymore so I get sick. I hate throwing up! Current Mood: nauseaus (Comment on this)
Wednesday, August 16th, 2006
10:21 am	I don't think Naveed's gonna talk to me anymore... He never called yesterday and didn't answer when I called. I feel really bad... I guess I have to face the consequences of my being a player. Damn! I was hoping everything would be fine. On the other hand, Fadi's "talking" to me more again... Current Mood: sleepy (Comment on this)
Tuesday, August 15th, 2006
4:08 pm	I'm bored at work 1. NAME ONE OF YOUR SCARS, HOW DID YOU GET IT ? A swing set fell on my pinky when I was 4 or 5. 2. WHAT IS ON THE WALLS IN YOUR ROOM? I haven't decorated my room yet... 3. WHAT DOES YOUR CELL PHONE LOOK LIKE? Badass 4. WHAT MUSIC DO YOU LISTEN TO? Music that I'm in the mood for 5.WHAT IS YOUR CURRENT DESKTOP PICTURE? Home - black roses Work #1 - yellow flower Work #2 - eclipse 6. WHAT DO YOU WANT MORE THAN ANYTHING RIGHT NOW? I want a number of things right now 7. WHAT DO YOU MISS? ...Matt... 8. WHAT TIME WERE YOU BORN? 10:42 pm 9. WHAT DOES YOUR DAD DO FOR A LIVING? He was a systems analyst when he was alive. Pete's gonna be a transit door engineering manager. 10. WHAT ENDED YOUR LAST RELATIONSHIP Dani's death 11. DO YOU GET SCARED IN THE DARK? No 12. THE LAST PERSON TO MAKE YOU CRY? Me 13. WHAT IS YOUR FAVORITE COLOGNE / PERFUME? For me? Beyond Paradise 14. WHAT KIND OF HAIR/EYE COLOR DO YOU LIKE ON THE OPPOSITE SEX? I love blue eyes, but everyone I've ever done anything with has brown 15. DO YOU LIKE PAINKILLERS? I love them 16. COFFEE OR ENERGY DRINKS? Yum 17. WHAT IS YOUR FAVORITE PIZZA TOPPING? Plain Cheese 18. IF YOU CAN EAT ANYTHING RIGHT NOW, WHAT WOULD IT BE? Nothing, I'm stuffed 19. WHO IS THE LAST PERSON YOU MADE MAD? Naveed, unintentionally 20. DO YOU SPEAK ANOTHER LANGUAGE? I know sign 21. WHAT WAS THE FIRST GIFT SOMEONE EVER GAVE YOU? I dunno 22. DO U LIKE SOMEONE? Yea 23. ARE YOU DOUBLE JOINTED? Yea 24. FAVORITE CLOTHING BRAND? Whatever fits 25. WHAT'S YOUR DREAM CAR? Don't have one 27. WHAT DO YOU THINK OF MARRIAGE I'm never gonna get married. Actually, I'm never gonna fall in love again. 28. WOULD YOU FALL IN LOVE KNOWING THAT THE PERSON IS LEAVING? I just said that I'm never gonna fall in love again 29. WHAT IS THE BEST WAY TO TELL SOMEONE HOW MUCH THEY MEAN TO YOU? Openness and honesty 30. SAY A NUMBER FROM ONE TO A HUNDREDs 8 31. BLONDES OR BRUNETTES? Blonde, obviously 32. WHO DO YOU CALL OFTEN? Recently, Naveed but I dunno if he's gonna talk to me anymore... 33. WHAT ANNOYS YOU MOST? A lot of things annoy me 34. HAVE YOU BEEN OUT OF THE U.S.? Yup 35. YOUR WEAKNESSES? I'm not telling 36. WHAT WAS THE LAST GIFT YOU RECEIVED? A bottle of wine, German chocolates, and a World Cup keychain teddy bear 37. FIRST JOB? Ready, Set, Teach 38. EVER DONE A PRANK CALL? to people i know 39. WHAT WERE YOU DOING BEFORE YOU FILLED OUT THIS? Eating and helping customers 40. IF YOU COULD GET PLASTIC SURGERY WHAT WOULD IT BE? I wouldn't unless I became disfigured. I do want laser hair removal and lasik though. 42. WHAT DO YOU GET COMPLIMENTED ABOUT MOST? My ass 43. WHAT WOULD YOU DO IF ALCOHOL BECAME ILLEGAL? It's already illegal for me 44. WHAT DO YOU WANT FOR YOUR BIRTHDAY? It's too far away to think about 45. HOW MANY KIDS DO YOU WANT? None 46. WERE YOU NAMED AFTER ANYONE? Some girl named Laurel thhat my mom knew 47. DO YOU WISH ON STARS? Sometimes 48. WHICH FINGER[S] IS YOUR FAVORITE? I don't choose favorites 49. WHEN DID YOU LAST CRY? This afternoon...just a bit 50. DO YOU LIKE YOUR HANDWRITING? Not really 51. WHAT IS YOUR FAVORITE LUNCH MEAT? Turkey or Ham 52. ANY BAD HABITS? Lots 53. WHAT IS YOUR MOST EMBARRASSING CD ON THE SHELF? I dunno 54. IF YOU WERE ANOTHER PERSON, WOULD YOU BE FRIENDS WITH YOU? I dunno 55. HAVE YOU EVER TOLD A SECRET YOU SWORE NOT TO TELL? Only to Meg 56. DO LOOKS MATTER? To a certain extent, yes, unfortunately 57. HOW DO YOU RELEASE YOUR ANGER? Bottling it up 58. WHERE IS YOUR SECOND HOME? I'm second homeless 59. DO YOU TRUST OTHERS EASILY? No 60. WHAT WAS YOUR FAVORITE TOY AS A CHILD? Toy? I dunno, but Pola was my favorite stuffed animal 61. HOW MANY NUMBERS ARE IN YOUR CELL PHONE? 61 weird 62. DO YOU USE SARCASM? Noooo. I'm NEVER sarcastic. 64. HAVE YOU EVER BEEN IN A MOSH PIT? Yes and right back out 65. WHAT DO YOU LOOK FOR IN A GUY/GIRL? I dunno 66. WHAT ARE YOUR NICKNAMES? There are so many 67.WHAT IS THE MOST PAIN YOU HAVE EVER EXPERIENCED? Losing Matt 69.WHAT WAS THE LAST THING YOU SPILLED? I spilled a few drops of my smoothie on my pants 70. WHAT'S YOUR FAVORITE ICE CREAM FLAVOR? I dunno 71. WHAT'S THE LAST FURRY THING YOU TOUCHED? Cali cat 72. WHAT ARE YOUR FAVORITE COLORS? Blue and black 73. WHAT IS YOUR FAVORITE BAND? I dunno 74. HOW MANY WISDOM TEETH DO YOU HAVE? None 75. DO YOU WANT EVERYONE TO ANSWER THESE QUESTIONS? Yes. I want every single person in the ENTIRE world to do this survey 76. WHAT ARE YOU LISTENING TO RIGHT NOW? 101x 77. LAST THING YOU ATE? A smoothie from Jamba Juice 78. LAST PERSON YOU TALKED TO ON THE PHONE? Kristin 79. WHAT'S THE FIRST THING YOU NOTICE ON THE OPPOSITE SEX? Face, hair, smile, eyes 80. FAVORITE THOUGHT PROVOKING SONG: I dunno 81. FAVORITE THING TO HATE: Pete 82. FAVORITE DRINK: I dunno 83. FAVORITE ZODIAC SIGN: I guess Aquarius/Pisces because that's what I am 84. WHAT IS YOUR FAVORITE SPORT? Baseball 85. WHAT IS YOUR HAIR COLOR? Blonde 86. EYE COLOR? Dark brown 87. Do u wear glasses? Yup 88. SIBLINGS? A sister 89. FAVORITE MONTH? I dunno 90. DO YOU LIKE SUSHI? "Fake" sushi 91. LAST THING YOU WATCHED? Nip/Tuck 92. Favorite Day of the Year? I dunno 93. ARE YOU TOO SHY TO ASK SOMEONE OUT? Yes 94. SUMMER OR WINTER? Winter 95. KISSES OR HUGS? Depends... 96. RELATIONSHIPS OR ONE NIGHT STANDS? Neither are for me but if I have to choose, I guess relationships 97. WHO IS THE MOST LIKELY TO ANSWER THESE QUESTIONS? ? No one 98. WHO IS THE LEAST LIKELY TO ANSWER THESE QUESTIONS? ? Amy because I got this from her 99. Biggest Fear? Snakes and personal stuff 100. IS ANYONE IN LOVE WITH YOU? No one has ever loved me and no one ever will Current Mood: depressed (Comment on this)
Monday, August 14th, 2006
5:58 pm	blah I've got cramps! No one posts comments on my journals... Current Mood: crampy (2 Comments |Comment on this)
Saturday, August 12th, 2006
3:23 pm	A old customer of mine came into my store to ask me out..... He's older but kinda cute.... But weird.... I said that I was "kinda dating some guys".... He gave me his card to call him.... I was flattered.... I feel pretty (but I'm definately not right now) Current Mood: flattered (3 Comments |Comment on this)
12:48 pm	Rant So I get to work today on time (10:30).... and the door's locked and the store's closed! Fucking Patrick didn't show up and I had to deal with all the shit from customers for it! He could have called me and told me and I would have come in and opened! But noooo... He also won't answer his phone! Ok he just called me back. He was sick and called Paul then went to the doctor. He also apologized profusely about it. Damn now I can't rant anymore... Fuck that. I'm still gonna rant. I didn't eat breakfast because I figured I'd come into work and buy breakfast for us, but I didn't get to do that and now I don't get a lunch. I'm soooo hungry. I'm drinking a Sprite in hopes that it will help.... I doubt it. Looks like I'm not gonna float the river tomorrow because Kris abandoned me and went to CC and Fadi's prolly gonna go to CC today. I guess I'll clean... Current Mood: hungry (Comment on this)